The AlvinKei Revival Plan

i need massive support.

why?

nop im not goin for any operation or anythin serious.

but,

i'm going to start playin the piano again. and then maybe shift to the keyboards.

so what i really need is some support.. some encouragement.. so that i wouldn't quit another time.

i tried playing just now and i sucked so bad i didn't even know that it was me.

if anyone of you wana show some love, leave a comment for this post from time to time yeah. whenever i feel out of inspiration or feel like quitting, i'd come back and read all of it and boost my spirits up. =)

thank you.. i really do appreciate every comment, criticism, and guidance.

some support on msn messenger =)

OPEN

your fucking mouth alvin

sigh. when can u ever learn to open ur bloody mouth to say 'hi' to your classmate.

you can scream, you can bullshit on the mic, but you can't even say 'hi' to classmates? damn, you should just go suck a cock.

day's been pretty long after i found out that i have classes on wednesdays, starting tomorrow. =(
another 10am-5pm day in college. i don't dread going to college. i dread sitting in class and fighting sleep. and especially during criminal, the lecturer will go "take this down : and the decisions of the Court of Appeal bla bla bla bla...." makes me feel sleepy all the time.

OPEN YOUR MOUTH

OPEN YOUR MOUTH

OPEN YOUR MOUTH

why is it that you can scream without feeling shy on stage, and yet so fucking shy in real life?

you're a hopeless asshole alvin.

reminder

cables spoilt..

1. i need to buy 2 cables. prolly 10-15ft both could cost me around rm100.

2. and a metronome, which could cost me rm200.

imagine, playin piano and finishin grade 8 and don't even have/practised with a metronome. what a torture.

3. fill up my exam form.

4. practise from the 'Guitar Techniques' mag that i bought.

suck

I SUCK BIG TIME.

here's a convo between me and lynnette.. about the band competition at PWTC.


: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
dun worry

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
there will always be next year

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
XD

alvinkei says:
yea

alvinkei says:
sigh

alvinkei says:
boring sial

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
why not go this year

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
go see how's the comp

alvinkei says:
no way

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
then nx year u know what to expect

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
no?

alvinkei says:
nop

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
okay then

alvinkei says:
shoot me also i don wana go

alvinkei says:
sure make me emo for few months

alvinkei says:
cos see all the terrer guitarist there

alvinkei says:
i macam so suck lidat

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
hmm...

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
then u can motivate urself to upgrade urself marr

alvinkei says:
no.. it'll make me quit instead

alvinkei says:
i very weird one la..

alvinkei says:
i hate seeing other ppl on stage oen..

alvinkei says:
except those artistes

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
hmm...

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
reli bit weird

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
u won't feel anything like... erm... i wanna win that guy... or i can play better than that larr

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
meh?

alvinkei says:
nop.. not for guitar

alvinkei says:
my guitar.. very low confidence one..

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
boost up ur self confidence larr

alvinkei says:
i suck so bad.. how to boost my confidence

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
stop saying u suck

alvinkei says:
sigh

alvinkei says:
n also feel like quit singin

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
why u wanna quit everything just because u dun do it well?

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
if u really treat it as a passion right

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
something u like doing

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
why quit just because u suck at it?

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
u play for ur likes

alvinkei says:
nop..

alvinkei says:
i play to be famous

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
the go upgrade urself larr

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
go take lessons

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
or wtv

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
practice more

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
the world of music right

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
sure got ppl like and dun like somethings one

alvinkei says:
i got no patience, got no heart edi

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
that means u have no passion for music

alvinkei says:
yea.. its dying di

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
damn dissapointing

alvinkei says:
sigh

alvinkei says:
tats y im such a failure la

alvinkei says:
its the only thing i do but i got no heart di

.: Lynnette :. [http://book4sales.blogspot.com/] says:
why no heart already??

alvinkei says:
i cant do it alone la..

I WOULD TRADE HALF OF MY LIFE TO BE FUCKING BLOODY INSANELY GOOD IN EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW RIGHT NOW.

and that includes :

- piano
- guitar
- bass
- singing
- screaming

study..

study.

i hate this word, a LOT.

i just killed my new year's resolution - i just added another pedal to my collection.

im screwed =( big time.

ok now for some regular language, cos you guys kept complaining that you don't understand wtf i'm talking about.

here's some updates on my life. well, not much recently, but some notable stuffs are like -

1. i finally touched the piano after 3 months in exile,

2. i had the sudden 'emo burst and feel like cutting my hair' this afternoon (yeah, when i get emo i'll just cut my hair freakin short to 'start again', weird ain't it?) but i didn't,

3. and i'm still trying (and failing again) to get a fucked up voice.

procrastinating whenever i'm supposed to wake up and go to college, like tomorrow for sure. i wonder when is my life gona be saved from the evil clutches of the fearful combo of MUSIC, GUITAR, and PIANO. my life is going down the fucking drain. i lost my mojo. i lost my social skills, like, everything.

i often wonder, what happened to the old alvinkei that i once knew. someone who was very outgoing, or at least he seems to be, and someone who isn't shy to say 'hi' to a random person standing at the bus stop. he used to smile like an idiot, and having many people ready on his speed dial. but who killed alvinkei?

what turned him into a monotonous nerd who has a penchant for nothing but guitars, music, and piano. shit. someone please save him.

finally

i touched the piano!

well i'll start off slowly today.

it'll just be a matter of days before i'm blazing thru the keys once again like before. and i vow to rock harder, run faster, bang louder on the piano.

finally you've come back to me <3

fuck you

fat ass eat my fucking dust u bitch!

im so fucking motivated to practise up my damn scales on the piano tomorrow.

cos i know im so gonna melt the face of this fat fuck when i see him again.

lets start the avk revolution again ~!



Vivaldi Four Seasons, guitar duet



Children of Bodom - oops i did it again (cover)

if only i could

sweep pick..

it'll be so nice to listen to bloody fast arpeggios comin out of my amp instead of the noisy shit that i play everyday.

another week has passed and yet i have not been reading my law books. even some of them are left untouched on the bookshelf. guilty sial..

and another thing that's been bugging me is.. my piano.

haven't been touching it for around 3 months already. sigh, my piano's been collecting dust, and i somehow couldn't remember much of the things i've done, and the times i've spent with my dear Wagner upright grand. will anything ever bring me back to 'her', and start playing poignant melodies, aggressive medleys, depressing pieces, and 'con fuoco's on her again?

yoshiki, where the fuck are you? i need you to save me and give me the determination and strength once more like you did before.




tell me what you did last christmas. =)

confirmed

buying the TW-1 for 2nd hand at rm290. plus a new set of GHS strings =D

say goodbye to my next week's allowance and hello to a new member of my pedal family!

COD on monday. can't wait!

anyway screw cny clothes. it ain't important anyway. i realised that i haven't spent on any clothes for the past few months. and didn't drink any starbucks or expensive coffee for a few months too. oh wait oh wait! i also stopped eating at nice shops that cost you at least 30bux per meal! so i guess i could use those 'saved up' money for my guitar stuffs. screw cny! haha

well okay so far already 3 people said that my blog is like some guitar blog. so here it is: emo time!

exam's coming. i still feel so blank in my head. i try to read stuffs by myself, and somehow after 20mins or so i find myself dozing off, or planting my head deep into the textbook, hoping that somehow the information would seep into my brain. how the hell can i get thru this damn course with honors for CLP.. damn

as if sitting alone in class isn't boring enough, i still have to fight the occasional 'sleep bullet' when somehow you find yourself really absorbed into the topic and understanding every word the lecturer says, and just with a sudden lost of concentration, you find sight moving slightly and mind hitting the killswitch. *dozes off*

having terrible phlegm nowadays but that's probably what i hoped for, so that i could sing a little more like the gypsy kings, kyo of dir en grey, and m.shadows of avenged sevenfold.

ahh!

another round of 'Gear Acquisition Syndrome' hitting in.

lurked around forums and stumbled upon this mid-80's Made in Japan BOSS pedal. might i say 'rare' ? going for 290-ish hoping to test it out and nego a little more. =)

~~~ALVIN READ THIS EVERYTIME YOU COME TO YOUR BLOG!!!~~~

1. ITS TIME TO HIT THE BOOKS. ONLY 4 MONTHS BEFORE EXAM!!

2. STOP BUYING NEW EQUIPMENT, SAVE SOME MONEY FOR CNY CLOTHES

3. GET YOUR CHOPS UP!!