study..

study.

i hate this word, a LOT.

i just killed my new year's resolution - i just added another pedal to my collection.

im screwed =( big time.

ok now for some regular language, cos you guys kept complaining that you don't understand wtf i'm talking about.

here's some updates on my life. well, not much recently, but some notable stuffs are like -

1. i finally touched the piano after 3 months in exile,

2. i had the sudden 'emo burst and feel like cutting my hair' this afternoon (yeah, when i get emo i'll just cut my hair freakin short to 'start again', weird ain't it?) but i didn't,

3. and i'm still trying (and failing again) to get a fucked up voice.

procrastinating whenever i'm supposed to wake up and go to college, like tomorrow for sure. i wonder when is my life gona be saved from the evil clutches of the fearful combo of MUSIC, GUITAR, and PIANO. my life is going down the fucking drain. i lost my mojo. i lost my social skills, like, everything.

i often wonder, what happened to the old alvinkei that i once knew. someone who was very outgoing, or at least he seems to be, and someone who isn't shy to say 'hi' to a random person standing at the bus stop. he used to smile like an idiot, and having many people ready on his speed dial. but who killed alvinkei?

what turned him into a monotonous nerd who has a penchant for nothing but guitars, music, and piano. shit. someone please save him.